I endeavour to answer
Admittedly, this is no slick podcast set up. I’m sitting here in my dark room, just before 0500hrs. Everything and everyone, still asleep. I’ve made myself a big mug of a chaga/coffee mix with a hearty dollop of cream. My mammoth beeswax candle is lit and spreading its warm love. I’ve started both fires in the wood stoves downstairs. And now, here I sit, staring at this little green button telling me to “record”. It’s a tad frightening, that button.
I wanted to just take a second and thank you all for your beautiful, intelligent, considered questions. So many of them brought me to tears. You are such a thoughtful, interesting group of people. Reading your words made me want to be sitting in a room with you all, lounging on pillows, wrapped in wool around our fire, just listening and learning from you, too. To just hold energetic space, to look into your faces when you speak. It all sounds so luxurious. I will make you a hot brew in a chunky mug moulded with real hands. I will even fluff your pillows. Will you come?
Maybe that is still to be. In the meantime, you’re here with me in spirit. Truly.
I will start with the first question I received and go from there. I won’t be able to answer everything in one shot, but if this goes ok, I will endeavour to squirrel away some time to go through the rest. Please don’t add anymore questions to the last batch. I plan on doing a part two or three to this one where I will do my best to get to the questions I couldn’t today. I will do another of these in the future if you guys like them. Perhaps once I learn how to record in a way that allows me to stop for a pee or to take a sip of my water without blowing your eardrums out.
One, final note: I have not sat down before this and formulated my answers. Nothing is written down. I realize that this means I will think back to what I said and kick myself for not adding this or that, but I resist the planning all the same. I want it to be as close to you and me having a conversation as possible. I trust that what bubbles up is what’s supposed to be said. I also trust it won’t be as smooth and polished as it would be if I wrote it out. But life isn’t that way in the raw and I feel better when I keep it as close to real as possible. That said, there were so many wonderful questions that some deserve whole essays in return. I have dogeared many of your beautiful comments as inspiration for future posts. Thank you for inspiring me.
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